In the last 4 to 5 months, I’ve been going through a huge personal battle. The kind that could derail my biggest hopes and dreams. At the beginning of it, I had a word spoken over me. Now, when words are spoken over me (which isn’t often), I always kinda put it on a shelf and ask God what he wants to do with it. It wasn’t too long until I was pretty sure it was for my current season. It was a “heads up! Trouble ahead! But don’t worry” kinda thing. At about this same time, a lady in our church called the office simply to say that God told her she needed to tell me that she sees me as a “fragrant flower” to all around me- I immediately wrote that encouragement down somehow knowing I was gonna need it. Life marched on- I mourned a mistake I made and then I got blindsided by some drama that others were pulling me into- the enemy has been so cunning to use the similarities between that unfair drama and my mistake to create a world of chaos for me. So much so that my own husband said, “either I don’t know you after 20 yrs of marriage and you have a glaring character flaw or something fishy’s going on.” In the last several days, another word was spoken over me. The word was to “just do what He is asking of me and don’t be afraid!” Amazing! Then, to wrap it all up and why I decided to share with you today, the following happens…
As I was turning my page in my notebook during the sermon today to take notes, I find this anonymous note. Except, you see, it’s not so anonymous, because I would know God’s handwriting anywhere 
. The word “enough” is no accident. When this whole horror started, I spent the night crying my eyes out before speaking at a conference in Boise where the theme was ENOUGH. Now, it was my turn to hear and accept the message.
God is good, gracious, and kind. He warned me, prepped me, reminded, encouraged me. As with any hard thing in my life, I wouldn’t wish any of it on my worst enemy except that I’m grateful for what I learned through it. I feel so seen and valued and let me just say, it is my great honor to ever be allowed as a fragrant flower in any of your lives.
